My Mind

This isnt a story
This isnt going to rhyme

Its just thoughts that im thinking
Things that are coming from my mind.

Its nothing special
Its just how a feel
Its not really for you
Its for me, so I can try to deal

Deal with my pain
Deal with the hurt
Figure out whats wrong
Figure out what hurts

I don't know whats wrong
I dont know what to say.
I want to express myself
But I cant.

Its funny cuz I can get people
I can almost see right through them
But when it comes to me I cant get myself

Actually thats a lie
I know whats wrong
But ive put it inside so much
That I am scared to let it out
I've convinced myself to forget
Convinced myself not to see
All the crap thats going on inside me.
Ive convinced myself not to feel it
I've convinced myself not to see it.

If I can fool myself
I can fool others
Right?

I want to fool others
But I dont want to

I want people to see me
But I want to be invisible

I cant make up my mind
I dont know what to do

So whats on my mind will stay there
Until I figure out how to express it to you.

~A Hurting Teen