Tears & Fears

Sometimes I wish that people would see
All the things that hurt inside me
All the Tears
And all the Fears
I wish they would see and care
But I know if anyone asks, I would deny they are there

I say I wish people would see
But I know I don't mean it
If somone asks I know I would act like I dont notice it

Id say im okay
To convince myself I really am
But inside im going nuts
And no one gives a damn

Yes I just cussed
I slightly regret it
Call me a devil
But it was refreshing

To get everything out
say random crap just to spout
Writing gets it all out
Writing releases me of it all

Now back to the fears and the tears

Its suddenly new
I really don't know what to do
They say poems should rhyme and so I try
But everytime I try it I fail each time

I have these fears
Fears of rejection
Fears of being afraid
Fears of people dying

Every since my uncles death
Ive felt really stressed
Each phone call gets my nerves in a mess
I think that with each call comes more distress
I think Each call will say someone else has died
So im scared all the time
I have nightmares
I have daymare
as crazy as that sounds

Its driving me nuts
I just want to cry
I really feel like about to burst
I just want to cry it out
To get it all out

But I can't
I need to be strong
Or so I tell myself

But is that really true?
No one knows
Not me
Not you

So until I know the answer I guess I'll just have to deal
With all my tears
And All my fears